Wednesday, May 09, 2007

K e k a s i h


disaat laraku
Kau panggil aku " k e k a s i h " ,,
kau hibur jiwaku dengan kata kata indahmu
kau menatap mataku dan berkata
"Buang airmatamu.. "
"Aku kau bahagia selamanya...'
"Aku hanya terdiam,
menitikkan air mata,
bertanya dalam hati,
" Blue Ocean Mengapa Kau bukan " d i a "??"

* bluesky*
moment @ mmc hospital

I miss you



hi dearest
let me tell you a story, about my dream last night..
I met some one in my dream
I saw her at a glance.. just a flashing of shadowing face
In my dream, I feel like I was riding my motorbike, ride to a place that seems so far far away.
A place that I’ve never seen before.

I met some one there…..
Yeah ..Some one I really wanna see for a very long time
But ....you know what, even in my dream,
I can’t fullfill my thirsty to see her face
I can only see her in just a very short moment..
I was passing by a place (in that dream) which I feel that it was her house,
a place for her to hide..
I saw her face in a flash ..
I cant stop and entering that house, no matter how hard I wanna go in
Then I turn back and go back to my place
(still in my dream)

Oh, I remember one thing now..
I saw many layer of silk hanging down from the ceiling
It was dancing by the wind blow
I remembered that I’d once entering that house
Walking down to the terrace which all the seeing things made by wood
It seems like a cabin with a country style
The furnitures..
The teak pillars..
The place seems so empty. I tried to find that face everywhere, but she’d gone



Then I turn go back to my place, all sudden I got a package
She sent me some kind of two things.
I feels like a sim card that we use for our mobile phone..
The package said that she wants me to call her as we’ve been so silent for a quite long time..

Funny thing is (in that dream), I know that she knew my favorit music
I heard a jazz mucis playing around in that dream, came from that package..
Oh, yeah, I got a rip of paper.. with a note...
It was her complaining that why I didn’t come and see her in her place, infact I’ve already been travelling so far to visit her place.
Why didn’t I see her? She wrote that in the message..
Then I awoke up.. dream had gone
But it was you that I suddenly remembering off
Because, it was you some one in that dream, blue sky..
its true
I remember you this morning, with a strong feeling about you
And then, I surprised that when I open my email I got a notice that you posted something in our diary..
So i read what you've posted in there..
How come????


Seems like we have the same thought
You said u miss me
And at the same time, i do missing you here
I was riding my motorbike this morning with you in my head
All sudden I really wanna see you, blue sky
I wanna talk to you not the way we were ‘talking’
Thru the words we wrote, thru the words we read
Thru the thoughts we shared
I know that you knew that I really wanna touch you not the way we’ve been touching each other..
Thru the words we share, touching each other in our mind..
In our thought……..
You said that u miss me
I miss you also, blue sky

I miss the moment that I stand in front of you
Touching your face, your eyes, your lips, your hair
Standing right before your very eyes..
I really wanna see you, the whole you
In time you are happy or sad
I really wanna know that either you’re laugh or cry, I see it with my very own eyes
Not thru the words that I read in the monitor
Like I am doing now.. reading what you’ve already posted.
Thru the diary we share together…
Cos, you know.. I think about you this morning, last nite in my dream, and the day before…
and so many days before

I miss you, so much..

love
*blue ocean*

missing you


dearest my blue ocean
its been a while we dont share our feelings
but i do hope you always know that im never leave you
actualy ............................................
i needed you
yeah
but ...
no words could say to you
my lips is lock..
i couldnt do anythin
its too painfull deep inside of me

i know u always say that
i could lean on you anytime
but ...........................
i dunno
i couldnt do anythin beside missing you

missing you
* blue sky*