a thousand kiss, a dream land

blue,

why everytime we share the moment
it always bring me to the dream land
the place where we can walk together
hand in hand
face to face
eyes by eyes
then the dream goes on
i just want to land a thousand kiss
in your lips

with my closing eyes

i am dreamin'

-blue ocean

de moment you and me

when we together this afternoon ..
you share all your thought
your love ..
your dream ..
your caring ..
and your hope ...

also when the time became ours ...

Blue ...
Thank you for always made me laugh ..
Thank you !!!


BlueSky
21/10/09

unreachable :)

blue

i wont be around for some moment.
i wanna prepare all de plan for 2010 for my own company ..
i couldnt be reach in reguler number but in others that you have
i cant update blog but available on facebook from some moment ..



Blue Sky

survival

Hi Lief ..

I`m back now to homeland and recovery for new beginning..
Last week is quite hell for me ..
One of hardest in life, I almost give up ..
Lucky lotssssssssssssss of my lovely friends support me whole days n night to watch over.
Everytime i lost my desire to live and life they remind me the beautifull of life
The world will be uncomplete without me haha
They dont let me go easily to give up .. I`m so happy to have all my lovely friends around
in my hard days .. I wont be succed without them . Friends is big blessing from God in life.

After the accident last week when in Pondok Indah hospital couple times i got collaps . MD said i cried ,whispering a name. when i asked, he dont explained any details , just said i have the guardian angel . it repeated when Camden Hospital when some friends of mine stay over , they hear clearly that I said , "Let me go Rez, and why I have to stay ?"
i cried for quite long time till my friends very confused cos i look very suffering . they wondering what has happened, i just silent and dont say anything to my friends .

Today during the flight to jakarta between me n Tyo , one of friends analyze everything , continues until now, i dont want it happened again in the near future .we evaluated everything and review the goals in life. Suddenly Tyo said , MD is completely right that I have the guardian Angel. I `m starring at him confused , he explained , Only guardian angel take care of his friends with patience and persistence .. Angels dont give up for hoping you to get better even you already lost the faith and if aint guardian angel , he must be a person with a very good heart.
Tyo said I must be very lucky to have friends with an angel heart ...
During the flight he comfort me in many ways coz he knew i m nervous to goin back indo ..
Now tonight i type this while we chat ..Hmmm I guess he is so damn right .. I have a best friend with a very good heart. Lucky me ...
I pray and hope that person surrounded with good people too in his life :)

You know why i share this to you ?????????????
we never know who will beside us when the hard times come
we never know who sill support us too
who will stay beside us and give unlimited attention, care and love ..
i could survive in my hard times because of my very good friends ..
friends in real life and from someone in outside of the world that i never meet at all
we ever rare to talk over the phone but unbelieveable the feelings of our friendship ..
i never believe its happen if my good friends dont tell me directly ..
or if i dont get the experience by my own..


Honey ..
what we have is special and unique too
we cant be describe our relationship as well
but we knew that we care to one another more
we want the best thing in our life ..
what we have is undescribeable with words but we could feel in our heart..
years go by the feeling never change at all
no matter hundreds time we said goodbye but we always come here again and again :)

Last ..in this posting i wanna remind you ..
dont forget to pray for whatever happen in life
dont forget to remind Him and be thankfull to Him
ask His direction in life for you and protection for the family when you gone, with the new task from management, new responsibility and very hard barrier in field ,you should more closer with God.with the big problem you handle , please ask Him to guide you .

dah ya ngantuk ah.. jika ada tata bahasa salah benerin sendiri

mau bobo dulu apalagi tadi ditinggal "kekasihku" yang main zynga poker difacebook saat ku menulis ini buat dirimu :((

The Song`s

I Have Nothing

(David Foster - Linda Thompson)

Share my life, take me for what I am
Cause I'll never change all my colours for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
(Your love I'll remember forever)

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you, you, you.

You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of you love
I never knew love like I've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to

Sin ` 17/10/09

demam

blue

aku demam cukup tinggi
aku tahu harus minum obat
tahu banget
but this time i dont want too


blue

let me drowning in your blue sea ..
stay there forever

-blue sky

distance

Blue ...

do you remember last night when de first time i answered de phone
there some text from 0816 ....with the love words but didnt remember whose number
actually i did know but i dont want to explaine to you
cos im shocked knowing i still saved text from someone in ancient time

de one who made you jealous from de day we met ..
i didnt expected read his sms ...
especially this very moment
when i needed someone by my side through my hard days ..
his text remind me de old good memories..

Blue,

actually last night when u wish there will be someone to take care of me and my answer i dont need it ..
i do realised it was not right at all ..
sometimes i want mc dreammy by my side like ilham company me in the old days .
pray day and night beside me
cooking and even decorate my room by his own hand ..
these very moment i remembered ilham so bad..
i wish i have someone like he used to take care of me until i got recovery again.
but now .. no more ilham by my side
no more q as well to company me with politic discussion ..
no more all de loving people around me ..




deep down in my heart i want them back !!!
i want to share about my fearness
i want to share every progress
but now ...
i cant..
even i have some best friends but i cant share de fearness w them
the feeling is different...
there some moment i tried to share with mr robotto but ended with he created the distance :(

Thanks God

Lief ...
never expected we could talk over the phone again
im speechless when you called me
that is de reason i hang up at de first time
haha
sorry ..
i need time to realised its you ...
always, time flies so fast when we talk over the phone

im glad we could laugh again like the old days ..
you always know how to bring de smile in me ..
having you by my side again made this world starting colourfull ...






Lief ...
do you remembered how many times we said goodbye but time driven us together again in our horizon ..
same as you, without your presence my feeling empty too ..

i live but without soul :(


now bout my illness
thank you for discusing with clearly mind, i could be more agree with you when you said i should be anticipated for de worst case, even de result said differences ..
million times i wish i could believe the result in Mount Elizabet Singapore but my situation even worst compare i had in 2006 :(

this evening happened again when i got chat with Rezky, i`m glad it happened after he slept, only you and mc dreammy knew my situation included where i stayed at this moment ..no one else ...

Lief thank you for always be around and take care of me very well

Bluesky ..

Yes I do ...

Hai AJ,

Yeah, since you were angry and made us separate I already miss u

missing some one who can enocurage me to express myself

missing some one who always make me feel writing is easy, making poetry is easy..

missing some one who without her I become a stone, doesnt have a full sense in the heart

for some moment, I lose all the great moment when I can share something with you

and that's make me feel empty


http://images2.layoutsparks.com/1/47105/dance-with-the-moon-5.gif

so if you ask me do I ever miss you?

... I can say yes I do

its clear!

glad to have your e here... glad to see something written again in our horizon!

BlueOcean

beautifull poetry from internet bout togetheness

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship...
one leads to another and the process is irreversible ...
the best lovers is the greatest of friends!

When you love someone,
don't expect that person to love you back the same amount.
One of you will be ahead, the other behind;
It's either you catch up or the other waits.

Never be afraid to fall in love.
It may hurt a lot,
it may give you aches and pains,
but if you don't follow your heart,
in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.

Love is not a feeling, it's a commitment.
Feeling comes and goes.
Love doesn't have to have a happy ending,
'coz love doesn't have to end at all.

True love hears what is not spoken,
and understands what is not explained,
for love doesn't work in the mouth,
nor the mind,
but in the heart..

When you love,
you must not expect anything in return,
for if you do,
you're not loving but investing.

If you love,
you must prepare to accept pain,
for if you expect happiness,
you're not loving but using...

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love
rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride.

How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?
Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine?
Why is that I miss someone I was never with and
I ask why I love someone whose love was never mine?
It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds...
but when these two worlds collide and become one,
that's what you call....... magic.

Don't love a person like a flower,
cause a flower dies in season.
Love them like a river cause a river flows forever...
Love may leave your heart like shattered glass,
but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again

--

Blue
I found this internet and I hope you dont mind i put in our shore
cos this poetry hit my heart remind me of someone ...

Do you ever miss me

Hai Lief

Today ... ah no since last night I miss you badly
wait wait ... No ..actually de feeling since de moment we separated,
i already miss you,

Do you ever miss me ?? us ?
miss my " jail " or beautifull voice that you love :))

I knew you must miss me but i wanna know by asking directly ..
"do you ever miss me ?"

Lief
miliion things happened
many undescriable feelings i should swallow all alone.
million pray to God wishing you by my side to ease the pain
many nights i prefer to be alone in hospital cos i dont wanna anyone knows my pain beside you ..
Only you and you alone who could knew me
but since we separated ...im alone again facing the world

bluesky ..