rindu

kekasihku lautan biru ..

tahukah kau disaat ku menatapmu dari awan yang biru sambil bersenandungkan rindu pada mu ...
rindu yang tak pernah lekang asa maupun waktu ..

rindu yang selalu hadir bak air ditepian laut birumu yang tak pernah surut ..

rindu yang tak mengenal batas bak awan gemawan dilangit biru tempatku berdiam ..


kekasih hati
rindu itu ada ..
rindu itu milikmu dan milikku ..
rindu itu selalu ada menghiasi hati kita
walau rindu itu tak pernah terkatakan
tak pernah terwujudkan


medio akhir desember 2003 - 2010

I miss U

Dear Blue Sky,

Where are you?

I should say that I really miss you, today.

Missing you is just like I am missing my world.

It feels like I don't even exist now when I feel this way, while you're not around.

Its hard when I realize that I don't have a chance to have you.

Yes, we have each other virtually.

But some times, I do need you in reality.

I need the one with whom I can speak, sharing laugh, teasing each other, touching each other, etc. etc.

Blue,

You must be wondering why I'm acting this way all sudden.

Yes, I'm gonna admit this...

I've just broke up with some one!

Some one! You must know her. The one who came from my old time.

Last two days, we, to be precise she, had just admitted that she has no more feeling towards me. For that, for me its okay. But one thing that make me feel so hurt is the fact that actually I was clapping with one hand so long, when we were spending some times together. When we were sharing our togetherness, going out for dinner, walking side by side and so on. It all was just a one-way feeling.

She'd never loved me, I guess. While I was so fall in love with her (I love her since I was on senior high school). Damned! She was pretending! How blind I was, how stupid I am..!

Last two days we open everything.

We broke up! Or, to be precise, she broke me up!!

I said okay.

I thank her for telling me honest (but I didn't tell her how shock I am. Didn't tell her how she stub my heart and gave a deep wound. A very bad hurt!!!) .

We promise to keep our friendship. One thing I don't know for sure whether I can keep up my promise.

Blue,

I didn't know where I should go to share about this story.

I don't have any body to share such this thing. I don't have any one, but you.

I should release myself from this bad impact by disclosing what ever I feel right now.

I hope you don't mind having me sharing this here, in our horizon!

This is the only place I have, blue...

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for visiting you not because we've been missing each other.

Sorry for turning my head on you when I am in misery because of being dumped!

I said her good bye and so long!

I hope, and I believe, that we'll never be united anymore.

I turn off all the story about her.

I feel so empty.

Can't feel nothing...

I wish I am not loosing my desire to write. I lost it once. Don't have any one to be my inspiration beside you are.

I really miss you, blue sky...

So much!

With love,

Blue Ocean

PS.

I tried to text you on 0818 15 something, but it ain't work no more.

Did you change your number?